Saturday, 27 December 2014

The PEN iS ShakING !

I do know that I do not know,
I 'gain recall to forget it,
I do want to give it a show,
And then just forget about it.


It's in my dreams, in my heart,
Its lying above my head, so far...
Its there in my hand, in my pen
All I need, is to give it a start.


The needles black going around,
And their little children sitting around,
Waiting to be fed,
There's an hour left, but here's the sound...


A stone from infinity,
it shook my head as it reached me,
It tossed, it bounced, it weighed an ounce,
Yet it never left me,
For it came from infinity.


I now know that I came to know,
I again forget to recall it,
For, I just have given it a show.
And you don't seem to forget it !!!

Saturday, 6 December 2014

अंधे की नज़र

                                
                                                                  
                                                 डरता   हुँ,  डगमगा  ना  जाऊ  कहीं,

                                          इस   बेरंग  सी  दुनिया  मे  मैं  हुँ   यही  कहीं,

                                              लोग  कहते  है , दुनिया  कितनी  हसीन, 

                                      मैं कहता ,मेरे लिए क्या आसमा और क्या ज़मीन, 

                                                       सूरज की गर्मी ,जाड़े की ठंड, 

                                                      ना जाने क्या होता इनका रंग, 

                                                     अब तो एहसास ही है मेरे संग, 

                                                        क्यों की मुझसे रूठे है ये रंग। 

                                                  जिधर देखता हुँ,गुज़ता एक ही नारा, 

                                               अब तो है मुझे मेरी लाठी का ही सहारा, 

                                                नहीं दिखता कोई रंग ना कोई नज़ारा। 

                                                          मुझे नहीं है किसी  का डर, 

                                                          क्यों की ये अंधेरा है अमर, 

                                                          इस अंधेरे ने मुझे है रोका, 

                                                 क्या करू मेरे नयनों ने ही किया है धोखा, 

                                                     डरता हुँ ,डगमगा ना  जाऊ कहीं, 

                                                  इस बेरंग सी दुनिया  में मै हुँ यही कहीं। 

Tuesday, 25 November 2014

ईद

रमज़ान का यह  आखिरी दिन,
ईद गाह में सब आकर मिल,
मक्का की ओर देखेंगे,
अल्लाह हु अकबर गायेंगे।

तैयारियां अपनी चरम सीमा पर,
किसी अवसाद का नहीं है डर,
आ ही रहे होंगे वे नमाज़ी,
जिनके साथ ही नमाज़ अदा करेगा क़ाज़ी।

चादरें बिछ गईं हैं, चप्पलें उतर गयीं हैं,
उस परवरदिगार के आँगन में भीड़,
पंक्ति में खड़ी हो चुकी है।
इंतज़ार है  तो बस उस एक लव्ज़ का,
जो सबको अपने घुटनो पर देगा बिठा,
माफ़ी मांगते हुए ही  सब  बैठे,
और  उस  अल्लाह  की  अदालत में सिर  झुका,
 मचल उठा एक नमाज़ी  का  दिल
आरम्भ  हुआ  ईद  का  ये  दिन.


तीस  दिन जिसके  इंतज़ार  में,
खाना  और  पीना  सब  छोड़ा  था,
आज उस भूख और प्यास का
अता-पता कोई ना था

सिर पर टोपी हाथ क़ुरान पर,
मुख से,
ज्योंही अल्लाह का लफ्ज़ निकला,
सर्वसम्मति की करी दुआ,
सबका दिल बाग-बाग हुआ।
यह देखकर, उछल उठा एक पंडित का दिल,
प्रारम्भ हुआ ईद का दिन ।
आरम्भ हुआ ईद का यह दिन ।।   

Saturday, 22 November 2014

Better, Bitter, Dreams…


“Suzanne”
 
The heavy voice of an twenty five year and three sixty four day old boy, in a cold environment, trembled as he tried to pace as much faster, so as to catch a pretty girl, in black clothes and a sky blue muffler, whom he had wished to be his beloved and for whom he had run, all the way, five kilometers during the time when the beautiful moon is at the peak of its virginity. His voice had a touch of antagonism, a glimpse of innocence, a stroke of intense remorse, a sigh of love and a sensation of accomplishment, all composed alluringly in a single word which he had spoken out from his red lips with an expectation that the name of her, if she had heard might make her hear his heavy footsteps and she might become so impressed that she might open her arms after turning back to welcome him and his ‘foolishness’.
 
But to his fate, the girl, who had been walking with slow steps, increased her push on the ground.
 
“Suzzzaannne…” the lovely name of a ravishing girl was pronounced so well that it almost meant, ‘wouldn’t you stop my sweetheart.’
 
The girl stopped. She kept her slim hands on her face.
 
“Rehman”, she screamed, enabling her concealed displeasure to vacate.
“DO NOT COME NEAR ME”
 
Rehman, the boy who stood twenty meters, facing the girl longed for her to face him. He had followed her instruction. He had strived to do that all his life. All he demanded was that she must face him, she must talk to him about all the contretemps which were generated in their lives, in a way she could tan his hide, and in a way their liaison may have a new beginning, but all this could ensue once she faced him, and that was what he desired.
 
But the girl, instead of looking at him kneeled down on the dusty path on which she was walking. She opened her leafy green satchel, took out a book, which she swung in air.
Rehman jumped on his feet to catch the black colored book. On the metallic cover page of the book, deeply engraved was her name, and her book’s name. “VQYHA: A journey from B to D”
 
“What is this, dear?”
His tone was unchanged, his expressions tainted.
“A return of love, which you had been aspiring for”
 
Tears rolled down his cheeks as he opened the pages of the book.
 
“Sometimes last phases of one’s life are much more significant than their previous phases of lives. They might not explain you the cause, but they may morally emphasize on prevention and cure.” 
 
“What does that mean?” He yelled.
 
“Nothing, but something which may be nothing but not anything.” 
 
The boy closed the book
“Open it, open it, open the last pages”, said the girl.
As usual, he followed the ‘order’.
What he saw, was single lined page on which was written something with a pencil and a stencil, which was almost illegible for him, but still he brought the so called book close to his eyes. He tried to read.
“G…..F….no, not F, E…..Q……..W…..Q…..V…U”
“What is this?”
“Isn’t it our college name, G.E.Q.W.Q.V.U or George E Quereshi Wahida Quereshi University of Venupur.
“Well yes…”
 
The girl got up.
 
“Are you all right”, asked Rehman
 
“Yes I am, I want to go to JEQUWAKVYU”
 
“You mean our college……”
 
“My ‘JEQUWAKVYU’, My ‘JEQUWAKVYU’”, her voice began to fade. The girl threw up.
 
“You aren’t all right”
 
She raised her hand
“Please stay away from me, as far as you can…”
 
“Look, you need a doctor…”
 
“Happy Birthday Mr. 26”
 
She fell down on the ground.
 
------0 (~) 0------
 
Loads and loads of fire, in the middle of which lied myself, in a state of shock. As I was falling in the profundity of fire, I began observing something contouring. I began seeing a black impression of a number. Two and six, the number was twenty six. The time it took for appearing, the same it retook for vanishing. At the instance when the number faded, I opened my eyes.
 
“So it was a dream”
“Oh god”, I sighed. I got up from my bed. I drank water. Two glasses, three and then four. I washed my face. I started brushing my teeth. As I switched the television on, the doorbell clinked.
 
“Good Morning Sir,” said Mr. Jonathan Ray as I opened the door.  
“Good Morning, Mr. Ray. Come. Sit. Did you have coffee?”
“Yes Sir. I ordered for you too”
“Oh! Thank You Mr. Ray!”
 
I, Manish Chhabra, Executive Manager, Maryloc Inc., with my colleague, Mr. Jonathan Ray was representing our company at the ‘BizFest Convo’ which was going to take place at New Delhi, India. It was an extremely huge event in which nearly four hundred companies, all over the world were participating. I was selected by our CEO, Mrs. Aradhya Vyasa to represent our company among the top companies of the world, and not to say, I did not want this opportunity to escape my destiny.
We were in Hotel Oberoi, in Delhi, when my phone rang.
 
“Hello”
“Manish”
“Yes”
“This is Bhargavi”
“Hey… Bhargavi Mishra, right?”
“Well, well, well, finally I’ve reached you.”
“Oh buddy! How are you?”
“Well I am fine, but someone is not fine”
“Who”, I felt myself in tension.
“Do you remember ‘Ayushi’?”
I felt my mouth open. Ayushi, a name which had crossed my ears after three years. A name which had become my companion in my bad times, a name which was with me even when I was not in a condition to support myself. A name which had supported me. A name for which I had lived for years. A name for which I left her.
 
“Hello”
“Yes, Yes, Yes, I remember.
“How can you say that? You know, you cannot forget her”, she said.
“What happened”, I ignored her.
“Listen, when I was talking to her, on phone yesterday, she was extremely tense. She was thrown out of her company. When I asked her the reason she denied to tell me and at the same time here phone cut. I tried many times, but I could not reach her.”
My heart started throbbing fast.
 
‘Was she the same, Suzanne’
 
“Where is she now”, I asked
“I don’t know but yesterday she was in Delhi.”
“Where are you now?”
“I am at IGI Airport, waiting for my flight”.
“Can you give me her number?”
“Well, Ok!”
 
 
I dialed her number. No one picked up.
I redialed her number. The ring was almost completed when someone picked up the call.
“Yes”, a hoarse voice of a man welcomed me.
“Can I talk to Ayushi Mehta?”
“Who are you?”
“This is Manish, Manish Chhabra.”
“Ayushi is dead”
“No, Ayushi cannot die”
“Ayushi, is dead beta, I am his father speaking. Her dead body is lying in front of me”, the man’s voice softened.
The phone dropped from my hands.
 
------0 (~) 0------
 
Rehman picked up the book, with intense labour. On it was engraved ‘VQYHA: A journey from B to D’. He opened the book. Nothing was either printed or written on it. He turned the page, nothing again. He started turning the page faster nothing was written in it. All of a sudden he recalled something. He turned to the last page. The seven letters were missing. He closed the book.
‘VQYHA: A journey from B to D’. Some thing is there in ‘VQYHA’. He tried to analyze the word. What is there in this word? Something hidden, something unexpected.
What…is…the…hidden…secret…?
“Lets say, V for 22, Q for 17, Y for 25, H for 8, A for 1. If we subtract each of them from … from … from … 26 yes, total number of alphabets, we get 4, 9, 1, 18, 25, that is, D, I, A, R, Y. Diary. So this is a diary! And if we apply this to G.E.Q.W.Q.V.U…!”
 

Thursday, 23 October 2014

"Imagination"



                                        "Imagination"

                              Imagination!, imagination,
                             the gods biggest creation.
                           it is the power,that human has,
                        do not worry about any situation .
                                      
                                      if there is none,
                       that itself is the answer to someone
                           it doesn't matter who you are,
          it doesn't want,boundaries that man has build so far.
its the word that makes difference between thoughts,people                       
                                         and nation
      
                          nobody has to borrow,sell or lend,
                             its the soul's in side blend
                           that how you tend to imagine.
                   it does not know the direction of universe 
                   but the deeds that we do act as a curse.

                         it follows no rules ,no regulation,
                          it has a good friend to walk with,
                             but do not know how to talk.
                somewhere or the other i know the answer,
                     would come to answer themselves.
          
                                cause it is the only light,
                            to think right and shine bright,
                             by imagining the imagination.                   

Sunday, 19 October 2014

मधुर मधुर मेरे दीपक जल -महादेवी वर्मा व्याख्या [ENGLISH]


मधुर मधुर मेरे दीपक जल

 महादेवी वर्मा

मधुर मधुर मेरे दीपक जल!
युग युग प्रतिदिन प्रतिक्षण प्रतिपल;
प्रियतम का पथ आलोकित कर!

सौरभ फैला विपुल धूप बन;
मृदुल मोम-सा घुल रे मृदु तन;
दे प्रकाश का सिंधु अपरिमित,
तेरे जीवन का अणु गल-गल!
पुलक-पुलक मेरे दीपक जल!

सारे शीतल कोमल नूतन,
माँग रहे तुझको ज्वाला-कण;
विश्वशलभ सिर धुन कहता "मैं
हाय न जल पाया तुझमें मिल"!
सिहर-सिहर मेरे दीपक जल!

जलते नभ में देख असंख्यक;
स्नेहहीन नित कितने दीपक;
जलमय सागर का उर जलता;
विद्युत ले घिरता है बादल!
विहंस-विहंस मेरे दीपक जल! 


MEANING :व्याख्या:

मधुर मधुर मेरे दीपक जल  by Mahadevi Verma has its central theme that requests the almighty that he may come to her as her spirit enlightens his path and that her spirit may for ever burn unto enlightening the very path through which lord comes to her.

Para 2.
Verma ji lived away from her husband. In an all lonely world for her, even when large populations existed around her she was solitary. She asks her प्रियतम (the almighty) to come to her and relieve her of all anxieties for she possesses no further strength to retreat to him. She calls her spirit or soul the lamp or दीपक and asks it that it shall burn anyway. That burning you enlighten the world and the Almighty's path, so elaborated that it shall extend till infinity.
Para 3.
The poet asks her enlightened soul that it must also radiate heat to unexcited and the minds who have retreated to darkness and guide them to the path of prosperity. Very similarly as a lightbug is attracted to दीपक and burns to death symbolizes its want for knowledge.
Para 4.
Mahadevi ji was alone between a large population. No one she could call her own; people who lacked any compassion or love towards her. Therefore, symbolizing those she calls the stars lacking compassion and any romanticism for even being so populous, they do not radiate light and no particular is benefited from such light while solitarly a moon even though a bit, enlightens the earth and supply people's mind with peace. And even though the vast ocean has unfathomably deep water, yet deep within his heart burns. Burns in anxiety of lacking people's love and (in the poet's case) being away from his beloved. Lastly she says- even though the clouds may seem harmless and soft yet they are capable to produce high voltage electricity and that it does have fire within, fire of anxiety which she herself has controlled.



Sunday, 28 September 2014

Thanking You

I left her at the railway station. She climbed onto the moving train as I helped the coolie to throw her luggage onto the train. She had two suitcases and of course, her bag. The two suitcases were quite heavy as she was going to complete her studies to Kolkata. The Bengali gullible nature, she had thought, might suit her. The coolie, a man with great optimism, smiled as he pushed the second suitcase onto the train. I asked the coolie to wait, as I climbed up the train.


 
 
The train was speeding up. and it looked as it may anytime leave the station. Ignoring all the noises, I looked into her eyes. Her expressions had changed from excitement to anger. Her eyebrows were raised. I knew that I must get down early, because, it may happen so that I might leave the station along with the train. All I wanted was a brief hug, and positively, wish her best of luck. I just wanted to make her comfortable. In that moment when I was with her. But instead of doing that, I very quietly, pulled her suitcase and went inside. I found a single seat empty in the first compartment. The seat belonged to her. . .I sighed. . .

As I pushed the luggage under her seat I looked at her again. Her face did not even mention that she was going to leave me. Her face on which I was expecting a drop of tear, did not moisten its eyes. The face of her, which had become my only favorite thing to see didn't even look at me into my eyes. A bit of anger had resided on her face. But I wanted the opposite, I wanted a smile on her face.

Though the only thing she did was she asked me to get off the train as fast as I could, unless I may be inside the train for next one hour. Suddenly, through the foggy window of the coach I saw yellow painted board on which was beautifully engraved "Lucknow Junction". I immediately rushed out of the gate and landed on the platform, but still I was running along with the train. As I stopped, I turned my eyes to the same door of the coach. What I saw was a bearded man with a black coat standing on the door. I paused. My eyes began trailing the same door. I stood there for at least six minutes to witness any kind of love which perhaps, I thought, I may see. I wanted, yes, I wanted to see her bidding be good bye. Any kind of affection, any kind of love, any kind of friendship or any kind of result for my love from my sweetheart, I wanted to see, but, I admit, I partially saw what I desired, that the coolie came running to me, satisfied all my yearnings, and I, foolishly, turned to him, and smiled, and with great effort opened my mouth just to say,


"Thank You........!"